I lost my mother a few weeks ago, in a blink of an eye and my life is now forever changed. I’m not able to feel my feelings yet, I have completely shut off as I know that if I face the fact I will never again hug my mum, that she will never see me turn 30 or get married - I don’t think I’ll ever recover or be truly happy again. I know with my brain I need to go through the grief and went through it with my brother, niece and all grandparents but I don’t know how to not completely enter the pit of despair when realising this. She was completely health and out getting some groceries and afternoon, when she came home she just fell down in the hallway as her heart stopped in a second. The doctors where never able to find the cause of her death, we will never get any answers: as much as answers wouldn’t change the fact that she is gone, it would calm some of the confusion.
Posted by Linnea at 2022-05-05 08:08:51 UTC