Is it just me ? When others say he wouldnt want you to be sad, he would want you to be happy etc etc. I feel more pressure. And he knows me so well and knows how devastated I am and so wouldnt be wanting and not wanting for me. He knows getting up with a plan to face the day is huge. He would listen, see, hear and hold me. He wouldnt say all those stupidly ridiculous statements. However well meaning, gap filling they may be. In writing this, I detect some crossness in me today. Its just exhaustion and exhaustion facing a world on my own.

Posted by paula at 2022-08-15 13:58:00 UTC