I’m at a point in my life where most of my friends are in a place where they’ll probably be engaged soon or have kids, and hearing them talk about those conversations with their partners is so hard. I can’t be happy for them. I can’t even be happy for me. I can’t fake it. I truly don’t care so I just listen. Maybe I’m jealous that they are even fortunate enough to care about those kind of things - and they don’t even know the privilege they have. And I feel like they are unintentionally rubbing in my face how exciting or happy their life is. How they have things to look forward to. It’s so hard. I know this is a common thing with grief but it makes it feel all the more alienating. Wondering if I’ll ever be able to connect with people who don’t get it again or if they’ll ever truly ‘see’ me and my inner struggles …

Posted by Nisa at 2022-08-13 19:36:41 UTC