hi, my name is marie. oskir, my cat, passed away after 13 years of being by my side from the time he was 4 weeks old to his last moment. he helped me survive majority of my life, battling mental illness, being abused and leaving an abusive household, self harm, suicide attempts, and never left my side no matter how bad it got. even in his last moments at home, he tried to lift his head and move to comfort me, but he was too weak. oskir was born with a neuro condition that no vet could diagnose. he had seizures, wobbles, and perception issues. towards the end of his life, he was dealing with constant UTI's, constipation, vomiting, muscle pain, and lethargy and i was pouring money i had saved into trying to help him. about $2,000 in the span of a month. march 24, 2022, oskir was put to sleep in my arms due to a seizure that caused him to inhale his vomit, and the emergency vet told me would be fine, but 4 hours later, he was put to sleep at another vet who said the er vet never treated him based on his condition. part of me left with him. i have been empty since losing him. everything that could have gone wrong in my life went wrong since he left. it feels like part of me died and it's rotting inside of me. i feel guilty for not doing more despite all that he did for me. i know it sounds dramatic but oskir was my reason for my entire life. and now it's hard to find reason. i don't know if i will ever be able to move on.

Posted by mariexlabenne at 2022-08-13 04:37:46 UTC