We lost our son, Ollie, this past June. I was 23 weeks and 4 days along into the pregnancy. He was our first baby. we waited until the 16th week to tell our family after the first few tests came back because we wanted to make sure our baby was healthy. We just had the gender reveal June 5th. 6/16 I had a checkup because of a brown and pink tinted pea sized glob when I used the bathroom. The OB looked with a speculum and said my cervix was fine, that sometimes vaginal discharge can have tints of brown or pink. I took her word for it but I wish I had known to ask for an ultrasound to accurately check my cervix length. We had an uneventful and relaxing weekend before Monday night when I felt a couple strong cramps a few minutes apart. I thought it was Braxton hicks, I went to use the bathroom and bulging sac was present. I pushed it back in and went straight to the hospital where I was found to be 3cm dilated. I went into spontaneous preterm birth and lost our baby due to an incompetent cervix. Despite having a normal cervix and healthy pregnancy, we were told sometimes this just happens. They medicated me to try to stop the labor. Unfortunately none of it worked. Tuesday afternoon I gave birth to our little boy. He lived for 2 hours, it was the most heartbreaking time of our lives. Meeting our little boy only to lose him so soon. All our hopes and dreams we've had for him and our little family taken away. The what ifs and maybes torture me.

Posted by Ollie’s Momma at 2022-08-12 23:37:36 UTC