Hi, I’m kiarah and I lost my best friend and boyfriend 5 months ago to a sudden brain aneurysm. He was only 25 but lived the most incredible, respectful and vibrant life. I hold him in the highest regard. He was the best of me. I feel lost which I know is normal, and exhausted being around anyone who isn’t him. I don’t really recognise myself because I’ve become so closed off and introverted to preserve my peace. I feel like my youth is gone and I’m most upset I have to remember and miss the life I wanted to have with him for longer than I actually knew him. He will always be the love of my life and soulmate but now I’m looking ahead at all the years I have left knowing I won’t have him with me and it’s depressing. I’m so tired of doing the same things I was doing before he left, nothing extraordinary but now without him everything feels so ordinary. It feels like the biggest injustice that if we have one life and we finally find one soul who understands us and then they get taken away. This feels like the longest 5 months of my life and I just don’t know how to push on.

Posted by moonsamykiarah at 2022-08-12 18:03:13 UTC