November 28, 2021 I lost my dad. He was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in February 2021 and his health declined very quickly. He will miss my college graduation, me getting my first job, he will not be there to walk me down the aisle on my wedding day, or meet my children. Someone once told me “it’ll never be easy, it’ll just be different.” My family is close and my dad was everything to me. He made me laugh more than anyone, supported me endlessly, inspired me, he would’ve followed me to the ends of the earth, and he actually followed me up to the top of a mountain one day to help me reach my goal. He used to send me screenshots of his Starbucks card every time he reloaded it with money. Ever since he died, I feel so numb to life. I’m not myself and I’m not happy and I can’t find the happiness that I felt before everything happened because nothing about my life will ever be the same. I’m not catching up with time. And sometimes it catches up to me and it's too overwhelming for me. It's so much pain and frustration and I’m tired.

Posted by raqvsan at 2022-07-31 07:02:43 UTC