Had a couple of okay days and then last night grief took over again and I cried myself to sleep. I had to go to work today and its been a somber day I just feel sad and I missing him so much. I am asking the same questions I was asking the day he died… why? He was so loved by everyone. Such a beautiful soul and a bright future ahead of him. We tried for a year to get pregnant before he passed and had 3 miscarriages. He was giving me hope and strength that we would have our baby and we would grow old together, but with my own grief for not keeping the pregnancy’s I missed the signs of his depression. I know I did everything I could have done but I still feel like I let him down. I want him back. I want our talks, I want to kiss him to hug him, I want our future back. I am just sad today, tears come down just to think of him, I miss him so much 😞💔 it’s been almost 4 month and it feels like an eternity already. 🥺

Posted by Claudia at 2022-07-26 01:30:47 UTC