Hello and hugs to everyone here. I’m Chrystal and I lost my only child, my beautiful son Lawson at only 43 days old. I’ve been devastated ever since. No matter how much time goes by (it was six years yesterday) it never gets easier. I’ll tell you all my story - I found out I was pregnant in Jan of 2016. I was overjoyed! All I had ever wanted to be was a mother. In Feb I found a large lump in my breast. By March I was diagnosed with Stage 3 breast cancer. By the end of March it was upped to Stage 4 as I have mets to my liver. I had to start chemo even though I was pregnant. Unfortunately my water broke early and Lawson was born at 26 weeks and 4 days gestation, weighing only 1 pound, 10 oz. He was doing really well, was up over 3 pounds when he suddenly got sick. He had to have emergency surgery. He survived but the next morning they told us there was nothing more they could do for him and he died later that day in my arms. Because of the chemo I had been on, I lost my fertility and we were unable to have any more children. Lawson is the love of my life and I don’t know how to live without him. Since he passed I’ve continued on my chemo and had five surgeries. Grief and cancer are taking a toll on me. 💔

Posted by pinkchrystal at 2022-07-25 15:30:29 UTC