The past couple of days have been difficult. I feel like I have no one to talk to. I feel like after a certain point people just get tired of hearing about the pain I often feel. I feel like no one wants to talk about anything heavy or deep. I also feel like I’m having trouble being able to express exactly how I’m feeling. It may not seem that way as I type this because you all understand. My anxiety is pretty bad. Small things get on my nerves. I want to do so much but lack the motivation and find myself just hanging out in my room on my days off from work. I can just be busy at work and a random thought will trigger a memory of my mom and I find myself crying but also trying to hide it. I took the advice in a previous post and I’m reading “It’s Ok That You’re Not Ok” but I haven’t been able to make myself consistent. I know I’m rambling but I feel I need to get this out. I’m tired of pretending I’m okay for the comfort of others. I’m tired of being told how strong I am. It doesn’t help me. Does anyone else feel this way?

Posted by kaylahalide at 2022-07-23 03:41:11 UTC