My husband has been gone 101 days. Today is a very bad day. I have cried so hard and I’ve only been out of bed for an hour and a half. I just want to die. (But not suicidal) We have no children together. I’m 46, and in this house alone. I pray, I meditate, I get out when I can but it’s just so freaking hot. All my friends work, and I don’t. I’ve started the process to get a therapist. Waiting on red tape, since I have Medicaid. I try to find things to distract me, but sometimes I’m just so shut down. I don’t even want to move. I just want to die.

Posted by JenR at 2022-07-22 16:51:36 UTC