I made a promise to myself early on that I wouldn’t lose my smile. I’ve known other mothers who have lost a child and I always said “they have the look”…a look I never wanted to have. I knew it meant they carried a heavy burden that I couldn’t understand and didn’t really want to understand. Now, here I am carrying that same burden everyday. I am changed. There is no doubt, but I refuse to lose my smile. Kirk and I shared a lot of smiles and belly laughs…you know, the kind where you laugh until you cry and your sides ache. I may never laugh like that again and my smile may be a façade at times, but I will continue to smile for him.

Posted by angiem at 2022-07-21 05:56:47 UTC