It’s been one month today since my Grandad died. Have been sitting in bed crying since it turned midnight. I still just can’t believe this is real. He was like a father to me, and my grandmother was like a mother. With him gone and her with severe dementia and not remembering me, I feel like I’ve lost my entire childhood. My childhood home is being sold, their house was where I grew up and the only place I ever truly felt safe and happy. I feel like I’ve lost so much safety and security, and the only people who loved me unconditionally. It’s so scary and I just wish this wasn’t happening. It wasn’t supposed to go like this, they were supposed to watch me grow up and be there for that. I just feel so broken.

Posted by shannoncarleesmith at 2022-07-17 13:50:28 UTC