After a very long time I am back with my friends, laughing and giggling like nothing has changed. We decided to go out today and out of no where the grief wave kicked in. When I unpacked my feeling, I realised the trigger was no calls from dad asking me where I am going, telling me to have fun. Suddenly I started shaking out of nervousness and before I knew, there were just tears flowing down. The good thing is I am surrounded by people who love me and while I had planned to stay for only two days, I am contemplating if I want to stay for more. However the anxiety is kicking in because I am falling off my routine. Life was so much easier before anything happened. I can just hear my dad saying do what your heart tells you to. Everything reminds me of him.

Posted by Kritika17 at 2022-07-16 20:23:57 UTC