I’m not really sure what to write here. I think a part of me is still in immense shock. My mother suddenly passed away two nights ago. The coroner deemed it a natural death, likely her heart stopped. My father and I found her - she was in her bed; it looked like she had passed in her sleep. She was only 68 with no major health complications. I’m overwhelmed with grief shock, sadness, anger. But mostly I’m feeling a whole lot of guilt. My mom and I didn’t have the best of relationships, but I loved her. All I can think now is that I wasn’t around enough, I didn’t help out enough, I didn’t spend enough time with her, I didn’t tell her enough how much I loved her. Maybe if I had been around more I would have noticed signs. Maybe I could have done something. I was supposed to take her to a Christmas market the night I found her. Christmas was her favourite holiday. I don’t know what to do.

Posted by mquain13 at 2024-12-17 12:30:55 UTC