One of the things that hurt the most is starting to only buy one of something. I always bought two, one for me and one for my Mum. A cute mug, a cupcake, a pair of new slippers as winter approached, a notebook. I could never really enjoy something unless she enjoyed it too. I always bought two of everything. The first time I realized I was only going to buy one was such a stab in the heart. And every single time I buy something and know that I can’t buy one for my Mum too is devastating. I can’t see her smile when I give it to her, she’s not here to enjoy it. So many things hurt so much. People can’t see the unbearable pain. We’re still standing but we are so, so broken inside.

Posted by Jehan at 2022-07-15 08:40:45 UTC