My dad died on September 20th. We had a really complicated relationship due to his substance abuse issues and I kept boundaries and walls up throughout my adulthood now (I’m 29) but I did and do love him so much even with that. I wish I didn’t keep those walls up like I did and I let myself be vulnerable to him instead so I could have let him feel my love for him more than I showed. I feel so much regret for all the decisions I made over time and I think one of most infuriating parts about trying to sort through these feelings and this grief is people telling me they understand and telling me I shouldn’t feel that way. I know I need to just feel my feelings and I hate people always trying to coach me through my extremely complicated grief. I know they mean well but it bothers me a lot. Does that make anyone else angry or is that just me? ☹️

Posted by Jessthemess at 2024-10-15 18:23:20 UTC