About a fortnight ago, exactly the 30th of June I had my second attempt after a long time (2019)which left me several days still to this day in shock, because I really didn't think I could keep trying when I promised my best friend that I wouldn't even self-flagellate again, and I was keeping it but after 2020 and 2021 with the losses of my brother and my cousin everything changed, and I was keeping a lot of things to myself for a long time, I didn't open up to almost anyone and I guess that was the result. The thing is I really don't want to die, being a survivor and knowing the pain that comes with it and I could NEVER cause that sadness to my father and my best friend who are the pillars of my life. I know I had to get to the bottom of it to be able to clear my mind even a little bit, and although I still feel a lot of shame for what happened, I also feel calmer to still be here and to be able to continue contributing to the visibility of suicide prevention and postvention.💛🎗️

Posted by paradaginette at 2022-07-13 12:06:22 UTC