One of the hardest things about losing my Mum was speaking about her in the past tense. At first, I refused to do it because it would mean accepting that she’s gone. And I never wanted to accept that. But eventually when I did, I was so broken. It felt like I had lost at trying to resist the reality of what had happened. I think mentally, that is a huge blow. To start talking about them, and what we had with them in the past tense. It doesn’t make sense and it feels very strange. Every time I say ‘my Mum was’ hurts a lot more than I realize.

Posted by Jehan at 2022-07-13 07:07:24 UTC