I feel like after losing my older and only brother i am so so alone. I havent even handled the present life and Im so scared of the future without him. Never be able to be someones aunt. If i get married i will be happy but in the same time so sad he is not with me. If i have a kid,i will be happy but again sad cause he wont have his or hers uncle. When my parents one day go away too..noone will understand me like he would. Noone will feel the pain. Im going so far away, i know,but i just cant shake those feelings off. Is anyone thinking about that too or am i just overthinking everything even more than i should and making myself suffer even more?

Posted by Ivana at 2022-07-02 23:21:49 UTC