Hello friends, my name is Nicole Lozano. I recently lost my father Armando Lozano to what we think was cancer. His health deteriorated rapidly and the doctors informed that they strongly believed he had cancer, however, the biopsies were inconclusive. Unfortunately, I will never officially know what my father had but if the doctors say it was lymphoma…well then I will say that. I have never lost anyone in my entire life. This is my first walk with loss and the road seems long, sad, and painful. I was very close to my father. I was the teenager who preferred Saturday morning breakfasts with my dad and sister than Friday night parties. I cannot sit here and say that I did not spend enough time with my father because that would be a lie. I was a daddy’s girl through and through and he was my best friend. We had the opportunity to live together for the last 2 years…thank you COVID. But as we may have all said at some point in our healing journeys, enough is never enough. The life my dad built was admirable. The person he was is something even more admirable. I’m here as a person who has no idea what she is doing because the day he passed my whole world has changed. I just want peace and sometimes peace comes in crying and talking to him and hoping he is listening. Hope you all are doing well and finding strength.

Posted by nicolelozano885 at 2022-06-23 21:11:53 UTC