I just had a successful job interview and I will be back to work next month. I wasn’t Abel to do anything for the last few months and burned through my savings. I am relieved that I will be working again, because then my head will be occupied but at the same time I feel numb and empty and so guilty. I was walking down the street back to my place and I don’t feel any connection to this. I just feel him everywhere, I want him to be here. I want to share my life with him. Prior to my partner passing I wasn’t in the best space mentally, neither was him. I wish I would have been able to be more vigilant and focus on him. The time he passed we weren’t even in the same place and I got a call from his family a few days later about that he just didn’t wake up anymore. I am so tired of everything and I just want to be with him again. I miss him all the time and I feel my grief has become worse.
Posted by Klb at 2022-06-20 21:09:54 UTC