August 15, 2017 is the day that changed it all. The day i got the most earth shattering news in my young 22 years of life. I thought losing my grandma was hard but losing my dad was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to experience. What he’s missed so far •Me moving from California to Washington •My sister giving birth to her first son •Me getting my first big girl job •Me realizing my sexuality & coming out •Me meeting the girl who would change my life •My nephew turning 1 •Me getting engaged •Me getting married •My nephew turning 2 •My nephew turning 3 •My nephew turning 4 •My sister giving birth to her second son •My wife getting stationed in Italy & us moving •My second nephew turning 1 And so many little other moment, so many birthdays. It’s only been almost been 5 years but it truly feels like a whole lifetime has passed. Father’s Day has never gotten easier. I live with the regrets of us only have a few photos because we would butt heads and weren’t always on the best terms. We didn’t have the easiest relationship and i never got the chance to try and fix it. Knowing he never got to be a grandpa, give me away when i got married, see me become a mom when the time comes breaks my heart.

Posted by Sass at 2022-06-19 17:28:08 UTC