Having a rough night. Every time I check another box off of my “to do” list of handling my mom’s affairs, it feels more and more real. This is about week 2 of being completely emotionally numb. I’m not sure how much longer this should be healthy. I’ve said before I feel like there are things that need to come out but they can’t. My therapist initially told me that my body was in self-preservation mode. I just want to feel SOMETHING. It’s either nothing or I’ll randomly start crying but it’s a weird type of crying as I feel like there’s no release of any type of emotion. Anyone else? I know we all grieve differently but whatever is going on I feel like is not “normal”?!?!
Posted by kaylahalide at 2022-06-15 02:38:29 UTC