Yesterday was my son’s birthday. It’s the second birthday I have not had any contact with him. At the end of 2021 he had his 8th psychotic break, and we lost him. I don’t know where he is. The voices were telling him that me, his best friend, and his fiancé were colluding against him - they let him out of the psych ward while he was still hearing voices. And they knew his was - but the insurance ran out. My heart is broken and this ambiguous loss is no joke. Some thing opened up yesterday and let the floodgates of grief from the depths of my soul come out that I hadn’t yet experienced. Thanks for reading. I just needed to share.

Posted by justme at 2023-09-11 01:17:52 UTC