I was feeling a little lost in the original group the app automatically paired me with, so here goes. My ex-boyfriend of 3 years was murdered 5 months ago and I’m still trying to find my footing in it all. He was abusive towards me but then died as a result of domestic violence. I find myself wanting to know more about what happened, who he was to others. I just want some semblance of closure that I never got. It’s so hard talking about this to anyone I know. Nobody really understands, and most times, they just don’t know what to say. I’ll be relieved that I don’t have to look over my shoulder one moment, then sobbing for who he could’ve been the next. Grief fucking sucks. I’m just here hoping that I’m not alone in this, because I feel like a shell.

Posted by jo.p at 2023-06-03 09:44:42 UTC