I don't always respond to comments, texts, calls, or cards sent in the mail but each and every message is read and deeply appreciated. It's getting harder and harder to be here in this online space but when I check in occasionally and see the messages you have sent, they are each like a gentle mama hug in the darkness where I exist. I know it doesn't seem like much and many have asked what you can do for me, but this pain won't be willed or wished or pushed away by "doings"...yours or mine. Words of support and random messages of "I'm thinking of you and I love you" are everything right now, they are my lifeline back to the Light. Writing and sharing your memories of Liam are a beautiful testimony that he lives on in your heart, as well as mine, and that he will never be forgotten. It hurts yes, the pain is excruciating but through this sharing there is also love. Love that feels absent when people feel frightened to speak of him, scared of how that would make me feel. I understand that fear but I need you to know that the pain is always here and it's a small comfort to not feel alone in my memories. Just as I'm learning to give myself grace that there's no right way or wrong way to move in and through and with my grief, so too is there no wrong way to show up in support. Sometimes in that moment I may not be in a space to receive or respond to the support you extend but I want you to know that I always, always feel the love behind the gesture. Your words are life giving in a season where I don't feel like I have much to live for. I appreciate every single one of you that has showed up and given me support in my darkness. I don't always respond because the words can be hard to find when the emotions have my mind and body, but I want you to know I am here today because of you and your love for Liam and I. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Posted by cepowers1220 at 2022-05-23 18:26:58 UTC