Waiting at the doctors - over half an hour. I hate it because it reminds me of so many things; being a child and ill but my mum always taking me cuz I had loads of ear infections; death (of everyone - Mum, Granddad, and my maternal grandmother); it stinks of hospitals which I can’t stand the smell of; I wanna be sick or run away but I can’t because my period is late and the reason I’m here is because of that, the abortion I had last year. I hope I’m not infertile. The doctor will be good though, I’m sure. Hate waiting. Feel like I can’t breathe most of the time. So exhausted. I miss my family.

Posted by Crooksy at 2023-03-16 17:42:30 UTC