Yesterday was the hardest day of my life I had a panic attack as the time got nearer to the hearse arriving and when it pulled up outside with Mal inside I don't know how I walked out the door but I did it , with my daughters by my side and my son in laws carrying the coffin I followed Mal into the Chapel. I was sobbing my heart out from start to finish but I found the strength to stand facing Mals coffin and I held on to the side and read him a poem oblivious to anyone else in the room , as a woman clinically diagnosed with anxiety disorder I don't know how I did it but Mal was all that mattered . I got through the day like it wasn't me doing it all Today I feel numb I still won't let my head except he's not coming back because I don't want to let go ๐Ÿ’”

Posted by jay at 2022-05-17 16:08:09 UTC